tonight we watched a movie in amanda and nates backyard and projected it on their fence and laid in the grass. what a magical day, shoot.
we did some nature stuff
some days i get very scared about moving to california. the thought of it sometimes makes my whole days feel bad. but then there are days when i remember that i can do anything. that i lived on my own for 8 months and hardly missed my family at all. that i drove to california (from michigan) and stayed there for a month and hardly missed my family. and drove all the way home by myself. i knew that once i’d move back into my parents’ house, i’d feel comfortable again. and i hate that it has become that way. i am feeling comfortable now and scared to leave. but i know it’s something i’m going to do anyway. i’m scared of leaving aubs and josh and kelsey. i’m scared of leaving these beautiful lands that i’ve spent this summer exploring. michigan is so beautiful in the summer. yet so deadly in the winter. i can’t wait until it is turning into winter again so i can feel confident in my decision to leave. for now i have many uneasy thoughts. so many uncomfortable and sad feelings about leaving. but i know it’ll be okay. and i know if i end up hating it, i can always come back.